Hello Sewing Sirens!

I am looking for a bustier pattern with cups, and wished to know if you guys had any suggestions. I think I could modify one without cups, but I thought I'd give it a shot.

Finally getting into a new apartment next month. Its nice! 1,220 square feet two bedroom at 700 a month. Going to check it out for a while then my friend Rob might move into the complex. It would be so bad ass if all of my friends moved in here. It would be like being a kid again with everyone in the same neighborhood. Or does that mean that I'd barely do any homework now....hmm...


deimosmasque is feeling so often depressed these days. I try to comfort but sometimes I really just sit there and stare, and I feel like I haven't aged much from being the immature otaku girl. But then I am 21..and most people my age are crazy immature. I guess I hang around older people too much lol.

music: Mind Static- Ice City

Why yes I am. Hopefully next month. We've been doing the apartment hunting thing for a couple of months now and finally got one. Its a two bedroom apartment at about 1,220 square feet. I really hope it goes well and that its better then the ghettoish neighborhood I'm in.

Did a shopping spree for myself and only bought one christmas present. I'm so naughty.

funny how I only seem to post here whenever I want to post some sort of agenda on my school break. I didn't get to everything...obviously..but I was almost finished with my super deformed self portrait. And I was able to get more work done on my future fetish site which should hopefully open up before christmas *crosses fingers*.

I've got a good feeling so far about this semester. All the teachers I have I absolutely adore. And it doesn't hurt that two of them are hot. *thumbs up* Me and my obsession with older men. One looks like the pirate and the other is a cute curly haired asian guy. Who I discovered is the same age as my boyfriend yesterday. lol.

Speaking of whom we are taking baby steps to be in a better position financially. damn bills.

mood: sleepy

Not exactly posting about how my life has been, mainly school school school. My website has been put on halt but hopefully it should be making a comeback.

But the purpose of this post is for me to put a checklist of all the projects I want to do, and hopefully get started on during my break. Doubt I'll actually finish them.

Model bottom half of Vi, and texture
Model, texture, and rig a stingray (realistic)
model, texture, and rig a mechanical fish (non-realistic)
model and texture a realistic face (based on mine) and go for there
and model and texture out the mountain flower

Woo spring break is next week! woo! Gonna get on girls gone wild! Ah. No I'm not.

So this weekend I had my friend Stephanie come by. It was lots o fun. She needed to come by because she and her boyfriend were having some tension because she is stuck home all the time. So our place was her retreat. I really hope it helped with their relationship.

So since I have my break next week, I seem to want to make an lj post where I attempt to type up all the things I want to do...and probably wont. I have much less sewing I want to do this time.

Sewing
Sewing bows to sailor saturn costume
Redoing parts of the Touga Jacket


Guitar! I must learn more then two cords damnit!

Portfolio work.
Go back and work on past projects (Fix scion)
Finish anime head, possibly body
set up print portfolio

mood: hungry

So deimosmasque wanted to go to this Neil Boortz booksigning thing yesterday, and I decided I wanted to tag along even though I'm not particularly a fan but I enjoy his show. So when it was our turn to get our books signed, I stepped to the side to get their picture together. Neil asked Deimos who I was and called him a stud. And he wanted me to turn around. And me being the klutz that I am, thought that meant just looking behind me. But really he just wanted me to spin around to see if I had a "tramp stamp." And since I didn't have one he congratulated me. lol

mood: okay

I gained a guitar level! I now know two cords. Woo. I know the G and the D7

Things are going better again, loosing inches around the waist and school isn't completely wiping me out.

I started playing D&D. So now I'm even nerdier. Just what I needed...

mood: happy

Woo! A couple of weeks ago I decided I was getting my waist down to a 29 and I'm just about there. So now I'm pushing forward to tighten my abs and bum. My success so far with this has been exercising semi-regularly and limiting myself to about one soda a day. Which is definitely hard.

So now I finally have a more upbeat lj post. Yay.

mood: accomplished

Getting over a craptastic week.

I've been wanting to post about my Cousin Danny dying but I haven't been able to do it. I figured if I posted about it earlier it would be the mopiest journal entry ever, so I kept it to myself and with deimosmasque. He died last monday morning in a car crash. Swerved on the wet road and ran into a parked suv on the side of the road, and died on impact. Thankfully. My heart does go to his family, even though I didn't have the balls to go his funeral.

And then before Jezebel died, so it feels like it happened last week.

School started on monday as well. And I really am looking forward to this semester, but it starting at the same time as my cousin's death has made it harder.

On saturday night I got into a somewhat argument with Deimos which turned out okay in the end. But god damn.

But this is a new week and I will own you week!

music: Buck-Tick- "Dress"

The cat with non name died on the first of this year. This was a stray cat that Deimosmasque and I had been taking care of for some time now. We would have kept her inside, officially adopted if she got along better with the cat we already own. So she became the cat we somewhat owned. When we found her it was quite upsetting. We were on our way to go to the mall and whatnot, already in a great mood, when I spotted her lying on the side of the road. She got hit, as most strays usually do. To top it all off, when we found her and all while we buried her, it rained. So miserable. We always refused to name her so usually we just called her nameless, and when we buried her we finally named her Jezebel. Because she was a slut. Sweet slutty Jezebel.

I see a light at the end of the tunnel. *reaches out for it and falls* Oh I'm overexagerating. This week was okay, last week was worse. My monday final went well, the teacher was sick so we didn't have to present. And my advanced 2d animation final went off without a hitch. Thank fucking god! The person in the group who had been slacking finally picked up the pace and contributed with what he did best with computers. I'm waiting for my texture class to start now. She gave us two hours in the beginning of class to get everything ready. But I didn't need the time, thankfully. So two of my teachers this semester have given us extra hours on the last day, which is realy nice, but I hope it happens one day when I need it. Which hopefully I wont, because I absolutely hate doing anything at the last minute! Expecially group projects. Blah.

So looking forward to this break. I have lots of stuff I want to do, I hope I actually acomplish some of them. I have so much on my plate that I never should be bored. As long as the internet doesn't distract me......the sexy seductress. Or seducter. I can't tell whether the internet is a boy or girl.

I think a couple of posts ago I mentioned how I've been trying to lighten my skin. Well it has finally worked! My face is lighter and much better quality since using the St. Ives apricot scrub, sunscreen, and drinking more water. Its great, my skin is in better condition then it has been for years. I'm going to find out what else my face could use, and try not to go too overboard. I've also been trying to play ddr regularly to get my exercise in. I've been feeling like a tub of lard lately so I decided to change it. Shallow anyone? Why yes I am. Damn straight.

location: School mood: sleepy

This year I'm able to get back up to my parent's hometown of pittsburgh pa. Which is kind of odd that I always go because it isn't exactly mine, but it feels like it is with how many times I've went up to visit. I'm really looking forward to it, expecially since I haven't been up for a trip longer then a weekend for quite a while. Because I neeeeeed to see my Grandma. ^.^ Although I wish my signifigant other, deimosmasque was more excited to go. But can I blame him? He's only going because I am. And he has been through the worst times with my relatives. *shivers off bad memories*

I'm getting through finals! Just about done. Everything is due next week, and a bit of stuff this week is due too. Tomorrow my sculpture is due cooked (today I have to work on lots of sculpture homework and hopefully finish my car) and on monday my car and math paper are due, tuesday I have to go in to work on my 2d animation project and get that all captured. Wed. the 2d project is due, thursday my midterm is due. Then on friday everything from my sculpture class is due. The chaos! The madness! I'll be fine as long as I take my daily dose of speed. Yum speed.

location: Class mood: busy music: Schoolmates giggling tags: school

Rules on the Lolita


I want to become a lolita, you say.
So become one, I reply.
What can I do to look like a lolita?
I have no words with which to reply to this.
You need a headdress, don't you? And a pannier.
Is this coordinate strange?
Is it not wrong for lolita?
Why do you want to do lolita?
Because it's trendy, because my friends do it...
If that's the case, you have no right to wear lolita.
If you just do what the others do, you will look like a lolita.
But I want you to think about something.
Who do you live for?
You think you want to be yourself, but you are afraid of isolation.
You yell that you want to be free, but you take comfort in following convention.
When you are praised for something you don't even feel comfortable with, are you really satisfied?
Girls who wear Vivienne Westwood but don't even know the Sex Pistols.
Even when wearing a jersey, a princess is a princess.
My lolita rules are mine alone.
So you are the only one who can find your own lolita rules.
My god and your god are different, aren't they?
There are angels who wear elegant dresses and play tamborines,
But there are also angels wearing armor and carrying swords whose job it is to fight.
I can't answer your question.
But there are a lot of hints all around you.
You just haven't noticed yet.
What you feel is right is your answer.
Sew frills onto the hem of your heart!
Put a tiara on top of your soul!
Have pride.

By
Takemoto Novala



this is from GLB volume 23, translated by theosakakoneko. thank

mood: groggy

So I've had this friend who I've had problems with, and vice versa, off and on for a couple of years now. I sent her this message months ago about how I thought she wasn't a very good friend. My point was proven once more when she never replied. Another friend of mine joined in on the message but now, months later, after running into her once more she doesn't quite agree with what she said in the message. Which is all cool. But I'm still in the same mindset. Years of bullshit really needed to end at some point and they have. I've moved on. Sure I have barely any friends over here in tampa, but so what? Its better then a friend that never calls or lifts a finger for you. I've asked myself a couple of times now whether I would want to be her friend once more. And the truth is I don't really know. We had good times together. She can be a fun person. But I think it could be true that she doesn't know me anymore. I'm not the same person that I was years ago. I've changed a lot since dating Jason and going to college. I don't do bullshit anymore, and I take my schoolwork very seriously. And I don't even like to be very perverted anymore, just sexual without being blatant. And I don't think thats the Denise she would want even. I don't know. Things have to end at some point. Besides it doesn't really matter anymore now. She's moving back over to the other coast (without even telling me, now there is a clue for ya). And odds are I'll probably only see her at cons anyway. Which I can deal with.

mood: cynical

This is from the graveyard set from two weeks ago. It was my first time taking pictures at a gravard...it was interesting. And I wasn't attacked by zombies, yay!

mood: happy

My opinion of the lolita community online is constantly waivering. Their own general opinion on western goths are completely horrid! I mean sure, we all thing mall goths are a bit silly but they sometimes act as if all goths are the same way. And they are offended when others treat them all the same! Gah! Oh the flaws in subculture. Sometimes I think I'd be saner if I was just a prep. lol.

When I think of the lolita community I keep thinking of the song "It's hip to be square." And it really is! No cleavage, legs, nothing. Which I understand why, but it just gets crazy sometimes. All of this attention I've been giving the lolita fashion just made me miss being more of just a goth. Good old goth. I miss goth. Vinyl, velvet, heavy eyeliner. The funny thing about goth fashion is, I'm not exactly fascinated by it as I am with lolita. Maybe its because I wasn't on the internet quite as much before, not to the extent where I join goth myspace and livejournal groups.


Random thought but I wouldn't mind it if someone did a fashion makeover on me. God how lame. I'm just interested to see how someone would envision the way I could dress. Not that I don't like my style, I'm always just curious to see how someone would change me.

Well lets first see the amount of things I was supposed to do during break and what I didn't acomplish

update portfolio and work-eh no but I did some outside of school work, which I heard from a teacher is supposed to be good

I made graphics for my future site. yatta!

I sewed with the extra sheet material I had lying around. Made a cute casual lolita skirt.

Didn't work on the touga costume *tear* maybe if I hustle I can later on today

Didn't get to work on my peacock lolita dress

Didn't finish the coral reef project but that I should definetely work on later

Although I did stencil on an Alice picture onto my jeans


But I did make hair falls! They were my second official pair. My first pair were done out of cheap red yarn, and looked cute just not good enough. So with my second pair I got two different kinds of fluffy purple yarn and black yarn. I evenly spaced them out throughout the hair falls and they look adorable. Not as good as some I've seen but fuck, I'm a beginner. Bleaching and dying hair funky colors can be such a bitch so I decided this was the next best thing. Expecially since I wouldn't mind having every color everrr. The process is very time consuming but with free time I can do it.

The surprising thing is, during this break I missed school. What's up with that? Although with this next term coming up I'm sure I will miss the break, I hope it wont be the term of stress. grr.

mood: sleepy

Ahh. It had been awhile, but I am posting again. It seems I have become addicted to my friensd page, and not so much my updating. I suppose I don't have much emoness to complain about. This term is just about over and I am sad to see it go. With having only four classes, I was able to take my time on my homework and I got some time to cool my nerves, even though my car did decide to be naughty this term.

My week long break is coming up and I would like to keep from being lazy this time.

List of possible chores to do (in order of importance):
Update portfolio-touch up on work
Make graphics for portfolio website
Sew with the extra sheet material I have lying around (making a skirt out of each or a jsk)
Touga costume
Peacock lolita dress
finish coral reef project

Only a few things are left with the top half of the touga costume. There are a few problems with it, even though I tried my best to make it as perfect as I can. I'm just being hard on myself I suppose. But thankfully most of the problems can be taken care of with simple fixes. I am just not looking forward to sewing the pants. Grr. I may leave the touga costume up for my christmas break or make it a couple month long weekend project, because otherwise it will be the only thing I'll work on for the week break.

I just got paid for a shoot I did for spookygirls.com. I didn't do my best on it, but it was a different kind of shoot then I'm used to, so thats natural. I really would love to do more shoots but my problem is finding cool areas to take pictures in (did I mention this in a past post?).